Monday, June 20, 2011

All He Knew Was Love

People smile and tell me I'm the lucky one,
Life's just begun,
Think I'm gonna have a son.
He will be like she and me as free as a dove,
conceived in love,
Sun is gonna shine above.
And even though we ain't got money
I'm so in love with you honey
And everything will bring a chain of love.
In the morning when I rise
You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

I sang this verse of "Danny's Song" to Gabriel frequently while I was pregnant with him, and in his  ten days on earth.  I sang it to him again just this morning.  In his short life, all he ever knew was love.  He was held close by me for 40 weeks, and held in our arms for most of his life.  When he breathed his last breath he was in our arms.  He was dressed and held even after his spirit was gone.  He is the product of love, and he is love, and that is how we know everything is gonna be alright.

Gabriel Michael Gerard Cude passed away at approximately 12:15 on Monday, June 20th, 2011 after ten days that forever changed the world.  The world is a different place because he lived.  You and I are different people because he existed.  Heaven is a little sweeter now that he is there.  And Ben and I are simply blessed.


  1. To You, O Lord, we humbly entrust this child, so precious in Your sight. Take Gabriel into Your arms and welcome him into paradise, where there will be no sorrow, no weeping nor pain, but the fullness of peace and joy with Your Son and the Holy Spirit forever and ever. Amen.

  2. "Nowhere does He leave Himself without witness, nowhere a space that doesn’t bear testimony, earth and sky and water a bridge from the now-tarnished glory to the then-perfected glory, and only for a moment, I am here, the pounding of my heart, a relentless applause of thanks…

    Here and now an awakening — a witnessing." Ann Voskamp
    God Bless You

  3. Oh, Andrea. So deeply saddened to read this post and about Gabriel's passing. But I'm so happy for the precious time you were blessed to have with him. He is now healthy, happy and whole in the arms of Christ. And boy did he make an impact on this world! I know he felt your amazing love his entire life. Praying for your hearts as you begin this afterwards part of the journey. Hugs!!!

  4. I know you don't know me very well, but I've been following Gabriel's birth, and one of the things that really strikes me about this is your courage, and that of Ben, and of Gabriel. He touched our hearts from the beginning, and he will always be in our hearts.

    God bless you for sharing Gabriel's story, and prayers for you, Ben and your families as you begin this new journey. Just remember that he'll always be with you, and watching over you.


  5. A friend of mine sent me your blog link. Thank you for sharing your son's beautiful story. I am 20 weeks pregnant and we recently found out our daughter has anencephaly. Such a heartbreaking diagnosis, but your story is so beautiful. Not many people can say their child only knew love on this earth. Thank you again for sharing this story.